Solo Pleasure with Honey

Confession: I used to be very ashamed of masturbating. As a little girl growing up with a Christian mom, being explorative of my body and pleasure points at the age of 5/6, I felt like I did something wrong by masturbating. So I often masturbated quickly but felt nasty or bad afterwards.

Getting rid of that shame and embracing my sensuality and sexuality as a mother, but most importantly as a woman, was the catalyst to my erotic liberation and exploration journey over 2 decades later: I started unpacking and journaling about my deep-rooted beliefs and thoughts on sex and pleasure while also stepping out of my comfort zone by fully embracing my nudist, erotic and seductive self as an erotic dancer in a high-end stripclub and creating an Onlyfans when the club had to shut down during Covid. I reclaimed my freedom and essentially my birthright to connect to my body in a sensual and sexual way and enjoy all the pleasures my body wants to give to me, without shame. I allowed myself to feel empowered and sexy when I flirted with men and took my clothes off for money. Them being fully in awe of my divinity: my body and my sensuality as a woman and eager to pay to be invited in this intimate fantasy. I allowed myself to feel powerful when I shared my nudes and self-pleasure video’s with strangers on Twitter and Onlyfans and embraced my slutty bratty self. I loved the attention, the celebration and the thirst for the parts of me that I felt were ‘bad’…
I liked being a bad girl—so bad and I wasn’t going back to being that restricted little girl. Never again.

Today I am a 29-year-old Goddess who is fully embodied in her sensual and erotic energy. I work in the field of sensuality, relationship & intimacy coaching — empowering others in their journeys to fully embrace their sensual and erotic selves, and I am still an erotic dancer and artist, sharing my erotic energy with those who make offerings to have access to my presence. Sensuality and eroticism are how I express myself, my emotions and my desires. They are my chosen art forms and what drives me in life and love. I completely and utterly let myself dive into the exploration of the many layers of what desire means to me. Deeper into my many emotions, feelings and imagination that is being stimulated when my energy expands and invites surrender. Deeper into the ecstasy that erupts from the cocktail of lust, sensual stimulation and intimacy.

And when pleasuring myself I can play and indulge in it all…

After years of actively exploring my body and what brings me pleasure, I definitely know how to make myself wetter than the ocean and experience multiple orgasms. Different elements create my arousal and it’s always a combination of kink (power dynamics & taboo stuff), sensory stimulation and whatever I can get my hands on in terms of a little toy to help me cum.

As a bratty sub, I like to be submissive but I don’t like to hand over my control easily. I like to play and tease and make it seem as if I’m the one in control… The bad girl comes alive in my fantasies, as my pussy gets extremely wet from forced submission. Or being the slut that a married man cheats with in his office or home. There’s something so clit-throbbing about being forced into submission, while knowing you’re actually the one in control and witnessing the lust and thirst that people have for you turn them weak.

So I’m going to let you in on another confession of mine: one of my most taboo but sexiest fantasies that I indulge in when I pleasure myself. I hope you’re ready…

It’s night time and that’s usually the time I feel relaxed enough to let my horniness come to life. I am always naked at home so tonight, I am lying naked on top of my bed while rolling a joint. Music plays softly in the background. During the day I love the sun coming through my windows, so my curtains are pretty much always open. I love my apartment as I live on the third floor and can walk naked as much as I want, without neighbors being able to look through my windows. It’s Spring, so not that warm yet, but I like the chill as it stimulates my nipples to get hard. My mind starts to drift into my imagination: what would happen if my neighbors in the apartment across from me could actually see me and watch me? It arouses me, because even though I have never experienced being watched like that, I do enjoy being a little bit of an exhibitionist and just the thought or risk of people watching me sends a pulsating feeling to my pussy. I catch myself adjusting my position in bed so I’m laying on my back and start spreading my legs a little wider, as if inviting my neighbors to come and take a look at this pretty pussy of mine. While closing my eyes, staying in that position for a few minutes without touching, I let my mind wander and envision my neighbor catches me in this very inviting position. He starts walking more closely towards the window and sees the form of my naked body better: brown breasts with even browner nipples and this brown pussy with fat lips. His dick gets hard in his pants and he catches his breath while not taking his eyes off this forbidden scenery.

From my position, I can see someone standing closely to the window and I start touching my breasts and caress my nipples softly. He can’t see that I’m seeing him and I love that.

I put my fingers in my mouth and make them wet while making my way to my pussy, spreading my lips to expose my clit. Each stroke and each rub makes me wetter and wetter and I keep checking if my nosy neighbor is still standing there. I can imagine him stroking his dick while catching me in the act of touching my wet pussy and rocking my hips back and forth to help myself climax. Thinking to himself: what is she doing? and not being able to take his eyes off of me. Mutually aroused by each other up until climaxing. Never meeting, never invading spaces but just two strangers enjoying the view or being viewed. I start moaning heavier and deeper and I want to cum so badly, so I keep rubbing and groping my breast, till I cum in full ecstasy. But I’m not done yet—I get up, a little high and with a sticky pussy from all my wet juice and clean myself just before grabbing my Lelo rabbit vibrator. I crave to feel the deepest penetration ever.

I lay back down, get comfortable again and start fantasizing about my old boss—this is another favorite fantasy of mine. I’m working behind my laptop in his office and he walks up to me, after closing the door and surprisingly locking it. “I have a question, Honey…and I hope you won’t get offended. I have come across your Onlyfans and I couldn’t help but satisfy my curiosity. I’ve always felt extremely attracted to you, sitting here in my office. My wife hasn’t satisfied me for years and” —while unbuttoning his jeans— “I am so filled up with desire to feel your slutty mouth wrapped around my dick. I can pay you for it, I crave you so badly…can you help me release please?”

I look at him and his weakness for me makes me feel extremely powerful. I’m the one in charge and I give him permission to come closer while further unbuttoning his jeans and taking his dick slowly in my mouth while sucking on it and licking from his balls to the tip. He starts moaning quietly as we’re still at work, begging me to keep sucking.

In the meantime, my pussy has become so fucking wet that I need to pause for a sec and take my vibrator off my clit because I don’t want to cum yet. I want to penetrate myself, so I let the vibrator slide into my wet pussy, at the same time I imagine my boss asks me if he can slide his dick into my pussy from the back. I give him permission and he lifts me up, bends me over the office table and starts penetrating me and fucking me harder and harder just as I fuck myself in real life. My pussy is so wet, dripping juice—you can hear the suctioning sounds.

I ask my boss if he likes my slutty pussy, more than his wife’s and he moans and curses in full agreement. He says that he’s never fucked a slutty pussy this good before and tells me how hard I make him. This mix of begging me and forcing me at the same time is extremely dark but fucking hot. I like him to beg for it, whimper to access this wet pussy of a slut like me, knowing he can get caught and behaving so inappropriately, misusing his power for the outside world. They don’t know I am actually the one with power.

I’m fucking myself so good at this point—I start putting my fingers in my mouth as if I’m still sucking his dick and he’s switched now to eating my pussy, sloppily licking and sucking on my clit and lips. Just how I like it. I increase the speed of the rabbit on my clit to stimulate it more while also stroking in and out, deeper into my pussy. I like the motion of intervals between the clit stimulation as if a real person is licking my clit. My heart starts racing and my breathing gets deeper and deeper and all these different sensations bring me higher and higher. I feel my wetness on max and my mind still playing out my fantasy. I moan as I love the sound of my own voice and I feel my pussy contracting. My climax is coming and I start sucking my fingers a little harder and my clit is the first one to experience the explosion of orgasm and within seconds it creates a ripple effect and I cum vaginally also. The rush circulates through my whole body and I tense up a little while consciously focusing on my breathing so I can release the tension and indulge in all its glory. The fucking hardest I’ve ever cum so far and at the end of my climax I sink into my bed, exhausted but so deeply satisfied.

The bad girl in me smiles and even though I might not ever feel the need to bring my darkest, most taboo fantasies to real life, I will always revert back to them to fuck myself senseless…

Photos by Honey and Juliane Falk